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My 80 Year Old Grandma Looks 40 Now
When we first saw her we were almost amused because she looked so great. Her lines are all gone and just looks so youthful.

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1216 am Arrived at makeshift solution: placing plastic mat on bathroom floor with pillows, towels, etc generally around 1220 am Resolved to go down to washing machine (ie fridge to get wine) 1224 am Closed door and ran down 1227 am Having cleared head with swig of wine, realized was immaterial washing sheets, etc Only essential objective, surely, was to keep ren alive until morning, ideally simultaneously avoiding nervous breakdown 1245 am Realized wine, though fortifying head, had done opposite to stomach 1250 am Threw up 2 am Billy and Mabel both now asleep on bathroom floor on and under towels, cleaned to a degree Resolve simply to sleep next to them in poo and sickcovered vaguely ual nightie 205 am Experiencing pleasing sense of triumph, like general who has brought massacre, bloodbath, etc back from brink, engineering peaceful solution: even starting to hear theme tune from Gladiator, seeing self as Russell Crowe, partially obscured by caption: A Hero Will Rise At same time, however, am unable to avoid sense that attempting any sort of erotic scenario with this sort of thing going on might not be a particularly good idea A NEW START A NEW ME Friday 20 April 2012 173lb, minutes set aside for meditation 20, minutes spent meditating 0 2 pm Right Have made a decision Am going to completely change Am going to return to Zen/New Age/selfhelpbook study and yoga, etc, starting from the inside not the outside, meditate regularly, and lose weight Have got all set up with candle and yoga mat in bathroom and am going to quietly meditate and settle mind before taking s to doctors, remembering to allow time to a) get snacks and b) locate missing car keys Also the other things am going to do are as follows:

*Get on Twitter, Facebook, Instagram and WhatsApp instead of feeling old and out of it because everyone except self is on Twitter, Facebook, Instagram and WhatsApp *Stop being scared of turning on the television but instead simply locate and read instruction manuals for TV, box DVD remotes and buttons, so that TV becomes source of entertainment and pleasure rather than meltdown *Do regular Life Laundry, cleansing house of all unnecessary possessions, esp cupboard under stairs, so is a place for everything and everything in its place in manner of Buddhist Zendo/Martha Stewarts house *With above in mind, ask Mum to stop sending me unused handbags, stoles, Wedgwood tureens, etc, reminding her that age of rationing ended some time ago and is now space rather than possessions which is in short supply (at least in Western urban world) *Start writing my Hedda Gabbler adaptation in order to have professional adult life again *Actually write said screenplay instead of spending half day setting off to look for something then wandering vaguely from room to room worrying about unanswered emails, texts, bills, play dates, gokart parties, leg waxes, doctors appointments, parents evenings, babysitting schedules, strange noise from fridge, cupboard under stairs, reason why telly wont work, then sitting down again realizing have forgotten what was looking for in the first place *Not wear same three things all the time, but instead go through wardrobe and put together fashionable looks based on celebrities at airports *Clear cupboard under stairs *Find out why fridge is making that noise *Go on email for one hour only per day instead of spending entire day in helpless cybercircle of email, news stories, Calendar, Google and shopping and holiday websites whilst texting, then not answering any of emails anyway *Not add Twitter, Facebook, WhatsApp and whatever to cybercircle when have got on them *Deal with emails immediately and so that email becomes effective means of communication instead of terrifying Unexploded Email Inbox full of guilt trips and undetonated timevampire bombs *Be better at looking after the ren than Chloe the nanny *Establish regular routine with ren so everyone knows where they are and what supposed to be doing, esp self *Read parenting selfhelp books, including One, Two, Three Better, Easier Parenting and French ren Dont Throw Food in order to be better at looking after the ren than Chloe

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