[lojban-beginners] newb needs urging forward

[WGraph <wgraph@telus.net>]

Hi there, I have been reading once in a while on lojban for about the last
three months. I took the first step and printed the two main lojban texts
(about 500 pages total) and have skimmed through each. I haven't really done
the exercises though.

AS you probably are feeling right now, this is one of those boring first
time posts that really rambles on too much. This is if you haven't geiven up
already and... well I'm rambling.

The point is the motivation behind learning lojban. Basically I have been
changing in a fundamental way, long story short I had one of those life
changing realizations, dropped out of third year engineering. The reason is
really hard to explain (the crux of the problem), and boils down to what it
is to be conscious, how we think, why am I alive, etc.

I've been writing extensively and I am constantly finding difficutly in
expressing my ideas, like there are no words in existence that can express
them.

I guess I want to use lojban, not for speaking but expressing very abstract
ideas about consiousness and life. But how do I know I won't experience the
same things, or even worse. As I understand it lojban is made up of
functions and arguments (you can call them sumpti and whatever, but that is
basically what they are).

There could be no functions that fit, or no appropriate roots to create
arguments. Well sorry for the long post, congrats for reading this much. Any
input positive or negative welcome